I received some very lovely gifts for Christmas and I feel very blessed. I have shelter, a vehicle (my Edge!), food (gluten free as it is), healthcare, a job, and so much more than others. We got back late last night from A-town after a few days with my family. Tomorrow we are going to Grand Rapids overnight to spend time with P's family.

So we have a Playstation 2. P bought me a few new games for it since I don't play that much. He got me Guitar Hero. It is really fun and he seems to be almost 'obsessed' with it which can be evidenced by him obsessively playing it. It is really fun and you feel like you are really jamming away. It also can be a little bit challenging. I am still only playing in "easy" mode. I was reading a newspaper editorial about how it's lame and that people should be learning to play 'real guitar' instead of wasting time on video games. Anyway - it's pretty fun and I recommend picking a copy up if you have the means. I just asked him if he wanted a break, but he said "he is trying to get a bunch of money saved up for something" obviously to spend in the 'store' in the game. Guess I won't be playing for a bit! It is nice to see him enjoying himself before he's off to school in less than a week.

Oh and I didn't tell you about my big Christmas suprise..............


I'm pregnant.

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It's a blizzard!

Actually, not a blizzard, but a terrible storm out! About 4 in of snow on the ground, steadily coming down and terrible blowing and drifting. I didn't go out yet today - missed church, gym, grocery shopping, and christmas shopping. Places along Lake Huron (like A) are supposed to get 14 in! Crazy. Glad P will be doing the shoveling later. No sense in doing it now as it is blowing around like crazy.

I'm going to stay in and wrap gifts, and try and finish those damn cookies.

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yes I am still alive. A lot has been going on which I will share in detail in the near future.

This website makes me laugh out loud. Even though I am not a cat person, it is sooooo hilarious. Check it out!

http://icanhascheezburger.com/

So I've been fairly blah lately. I also have had tons of anxiety. So much, that I wake up in the night with my stomach aching and hurting and swirling around and then I can't get back to sleep. I am now off wheat again because my tests scheduled for the 10th were cancelled. I've had diarrhea, nausea, feeling pukey, and hardly any appetiate. In fact, I've lost about 6 more pounds. I dont' feel going to the gym either. I think I may be a little depressed.

I'm sure there is a combination of factors - the yo yo ing with my health, missing my mom and family, winter, Christmas, and I think in the back of my mine P being gone for the entire month of January. I'm quite independent and fairly busy. But I miss him when he's gone. It's dark and cold and January. In fact he was gone all of Last Jan & Feb to Alabama. I saw him every other weekend. I did fine. But this time it sends me into a panic.

I'm going to the MD on Monday to have a talk. I really want to snap out of this anxiety induced funk. At least I slept last night. I have so much I am thankful for and lucky to have in my life. But all I do is worry, worry, worry, stress. I hate it.