I may just....

fall down and not get up one of these days. Things have been extremely chaotic.

After I had my surgery, I ended up being out for two more days. I just couldn't open my mouth enough and I had difficulty drinking and talking. Overall, I've been great though. The next week P was gone to Texas, and I was still recovering. The following week, I noticed the white bone graft showing through my gums. All the stitches had opened up! I had to drive to the ER at 8:00 at night and have my already VERY SORE gums re-stiched. I will not lie, it was painful. I did some deep breathing techniques so I didn't spazz out while the intern poked my sore swollen oral mucosa with a needle 11 times to numb up the area. He put in 8 new stiches and by the time I got home I was in pain. Today I had a follow up appointment and everything looked great. Then I noticed it opened up AGAIN! Tomorrow I have to go in and have it restitched again. Sigh.

P worked last weekend and has worked super late hours all last and this week. The cleaning woman has been out of comission. Everything is a huge, huge mess. I do the minimum every night - dishes, lunches X 3, baths, sweeping the floor, laying out the clothes. It takes forever and I don't sit down from 5:30-9:30 at night. I'm so darn tired. I can't keep up. I don't know what to do anymore. How do people with two little kids work full time and keep everything going and get to spent time with their kids? With the hours my husband works I think working one day a week less would help, but it's hard to give up the $$$. When I am at work, which I really like working, sometimes I miss V so much.

I didn't want this to be a complaint post. But wow, am I overwhelmed....