Wednesday, May 28, 2008


So I was up north for the Holiday weekend, and my family held a baby shower for us. People were so generous and I am just so blessed. Who would have thought that I would be having a baby shower??? It's almost laughable.....More pictures to come of that.... I am really tired today. I was off and I took a 2 hour nap. Had an OB apt this morning, everything looked good and the OB is optimistic this child will turn into normal position. Feeling emotional and overwhelmed. P is working insane hours this week, don't see him before 10:00 p.m. and he even gets up earlier.

When I got home exhausted yesterday, our house was the messiest it's ever been. Ever. His camping gear plopped in the middle of the kitchen, suitcase in the middle of the kitchen, dirty laundry piled by the basement door, the counters strewn with dirty dishes, soda cans, unused camping food, and mail, overflowing garbage, the kitchen table full of mail, and everything else..... I could just scream but I am too fatigued to start a load of laundry. I am going to tackle it bit by bit and he is going to help me this weekend. Or else.

One of the best things about my shower is that I got to see my friend M. I missed her! Haven't seen her since like 2003!!!! She is even prettier than ever - both inside and out.

Me and M.

My mom, two aunts, sister, niece, grandma (aged 97) and I.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

this child is already causing me worry

The baby usually moves around like crazy. Her super active period is from around 5:45 a.m. to 11:30 a.m. and a bit less active from 7:00 - 10:00 p.m. She is randomly active all day, but these are times when I am acutely aware of her presence. Thursday there is no usual movement. Some light flutters, small taps, but not the rolling and kicking and shaking I had come to expect and love. I counted movements and was still getting greater than 10 per hour (which every reference says is good). But it felt very strange and different. I also felt a bit more movement above the bellybutton when usually it is all very low in my pelvis. Friday I felt even less movement. I called the doctor's office and they had me come in that afternoon. That's when I really started to worry. What if something happened to her? What about the stuff that I prepared for her - was it a jinx or something. I went in.... nothing too much was said. It was my regular doctor in that day (yeah!) and my favorite medical assistant. They did an ultrasound and he said everything looked great!!!! He checked four different points - the lungs, the level of amniotic fluid, the heart, and something else. She was making the normal fluidish breathing attempts that are expected at her gestational age. He pointed out her mouth was opening and closing and she was trying to bring her hands to her mouth. Also her feet, which were up near her ears.

Yes, she is in the frank breech position and I will do whatever I can to make this child turn. I have a few weeks yet - about 5 - where they start to consider that the permenant position. Super.

I am just glad she is okay. No real comments on the changes in movement and again very quiet again yesterday and a little less today. I guess she's just flipped positions and is now resting. It's strange because I havent' been too stressed this pregnancy and have had a peaceful feeling that all would work out. Thus... the worry descended on me very quickly and it was not a good feeling. All is well however.

The worst thing is that I woke up in the night coughing and now I have my boss's cold. My throat hurts something awful. Ugh. I won't be going to work tomorrow and I have LOADS to do. Plus I'm gone half a day THursday and Friday.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

So P is in Atlanta again. It's cold and dreary and I have had a two day mild headache. It waxes and wanes, but never quite goes away. I'm not puffy or anything because then I would call the doctor. Lately I'm feeling quite worn out and my legs feel heavy, as if it is taking me great effort to move them. I'm still at the gym two days per week and walking another four days, but it certainly an effort. Sometimes I burst into tears because I'm just so fatigued and have been feeling emotionally a bit sad. I found out I am once again anemic and my iron level is no better than before I was pregnant. The doctor didn't want to change anything though. He said the baby is getting what it needs. What about me? I'd like to function :) We'll see how it goes.

My shower is the weekend of Labor Day. I'm quite concerned about it to be honest. My mother wanted me to stop at Sam's Club on the way up and pick up a meat tray, cheese tray, veggie tray and fruit tray and the cake which I would have to call and order beforehand (and cannot eat). She said of course she would pay me for it all, but that is not the point. The point is that I didn't really want a shower and I don't want to have to do anything for my shower. Period. There is already going to be the majority of food that I cannot eat (well you can visit then she says), and no one is going out of their way to make a special dessert or anything that I can eat (without GLuten). Maybe I'm being pissy because I'm pregnant, but I don't want to drive to the Sam's in Saginaw (it really isn't on the way home), walk to the back of the store, push a cart, lug all this big stuff in the car (which I have P's vehicle, not my Edge), and especially call ahead and order my own cake. Plus she has absolutely no room in her fridge for this stuff until the shower. I told her yesterday that it just isn't going to be possible (which I had to repeat twice) and she was pretty peeved and short and snotty about it. For --------- sake, (insert any word here), doesn't she realize I'm anemic and tired and pregnant??? There is a Superwalmart in town, an IGA, and several delis. Ugh.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Last night we went to Lamaze Childbirth class. It's a condensed version for two Monday nights from 6-9. We had to come all the way to AA, since our suburb has very few classes for some reason, even though everyone has like 3 or 4 kids. It made for a very long day but the class was suprisingly informative and interesting. I guess it should be for $138. Out of 8 or 9 couples in our class, we were the oldest. By quite a bit. I forgot for a second that most people our age are on their second or third child at our point in our lives. Another thing is that I thought we were really late in scheduling class, but most of the other couples were due in a few weeks and the rest in June.

It started with some relaxation/stretching exercises that I loved and P wasn't so crazy about. We also got big circle name tags that reminded me of preschool, but were actually "10 cm", to represent the cervical dilation during childbirth which was a real eye-opener. That's wide, but when you look at the size of a baby's head, you wonder how it is ever going to fit. Another eye-opener is that an epidural dulls the pain, but you still feel the pressure and burning. We got down and tried some birthing positions - I liked the birth ball a lot. We also learned some exercises to help move the baby into a head down position. I do most of the them already at the gym, so that was most gratifying to me. That is a big concern for me currently, that the baby move into the correct head down position, because I'd rather try a breech birth, but my hospital doesn't do that.

Who'd have thought I'd be at a Lamaze class? Not me :)