Friday, January 25, 2008

Annoying people!

I had two annoying conversations at work today:

Riding in the elevator with a new, middle-aged lady that works on my floor

ME: Good morning
Old annoying Lady: HI.
ME: It is freezing out this morning
OAL: Yes I hate it.
ME: Me too.
OAL: Do you have kids?
ME: What?
OAL: Do you have any kids?
ME: No
OAL: Do you want kids?
ME: I like kids
OAL: When are you having some?
ME: I'm not sure

Conversation that just took place in the bathroom at work:

PIA(walking by on her way to the stall) - Have you gained weight?
ME: Whatt???
PIA: Have you gained weight?
ME: Actually no, I lost 5 pounds.
PIA: Oh, I thought you said you gained weight
ME: *Dirty look*

Am i starting to look that visibly pregnant? People I work with are sooo nosy. MYOB - dammit!

Monday, January 21, 2008


It has been so *damn* cold here lately. I hate winter, I hate it, hate it. I'm freezing all the time. I think my iron is low again, even though the ObGYn refused to test it last visit (on Thursday). Otherwise, everything is looking good! I'm so cold that I am at work (in a hot building) and I have on a turtleneck, cardigan and my Irish wool sweater over that. I usually don't stay downstairs at home much these days because it is much colder down there. I physically hurt in the cold, it seeps under my heavy coat and is like pins and needles attacking me. I called the nurse and left a message demanding that I come in and have my iron checked. I know it is low. That is the only reason for it. Yes, it has been a high of 10 degrees F lately, but still. I shouldn't be this cold in a heated building.

I often wonder what it would be like living in a warmer climate. Actuallly, compared to where I grew up, this IS a warmer climate with much less snow. Would I hate the scorching summers of somewhere down south? I think I may. Spring... where are you????

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I have been bad about blogging lately. Honestly, I've been fairly tired. This morning I woke up and planned on going to the gym, but I felt a bit nauseous and dizzy, thus maybe I will go later (yeah) or walk on the treadmill at home. In the evenings I have spent a fair amount of time laying in bed and reading. I am still managing to get to the gym and do a light workout 3-4 times a week which I think helps my sleep and my aches and pains. The motivation is just not there lately, I'm pretty tired and it's January, and I think I miss P (16 days to go). Also - I don't think I'm eating enough (did you even think this would ever be a problem for me?) since I am still 5 lbs down since I found out I was pregnant.

I am really starting to show (I'm 12 weeks now) and I think I will have to do some explaining very soon. I looked at maternity clothes yesterday which made me both excited and nervous since I never thought I would have a child. This fills me a little dread because people I work with are very nosy and gossipy. They will ask me if I did IVF, did I take drugs, etc, how old I am. I have to come up with a really good response to these questions prior to the asking. I am thinking, "Oh my goodness - that's personal!" and act shocked. Any suggestions?

Last night I went to see "I am Legend" with a pal. Stellar movie. I really enjoyed it so very much. I tend to like end-of-the-world type movies/books since I read Steven King's "The Stand" which is my super favorite book of all time, hands down. I highly recommend it. Since P is gone, there is much less to do (I hate to say it... ). Less laundry, no lunches to pack, less shopping, less dishes, etc. More time to read! I used to be a voracious reader, but really got out of the habit 3 or so years ago.

Friday, January 4, 2008

The specifics

Just to clear up a few things:

I found out about the pregnancy right after Thanksgiving. I was feeling weird, but not the usual signs. I took a home test and then spent a good two weeks in total shock. Seriously.
We had been trying for close to four years. Four doctors told me never, ever. I was also refractory to fertility drugs.
We went to the high risk ObGyn on Dec 20th. They did an ultrasound. I spent the entire visit laughing to myself because I just couldn't believe it. I'm almost 11 weeks. So far, everything looks "normal" and "healthy" - two words that don't usually describe me.
I'm feeling quite good, not too much of an appetite - I lost 6 pounds.
The timing is kind of bad with P starting grad school at MIT, but miracles come when you least expect it.

I think the big thing that made the difference is the wheat free diet. I started the diet in the beginning of July because I've just been so ill this year. Did Vit D & massive iron supplements. Four months later, I'm suddenly able to ovulate? How can it not be connected? I don't care if my antibody tests were negative, I think that is what is wrong with me. Infertility is a well known cause of celiac dx. I had started eating wheat for the month of November due to my big confirmatory tests in December (which obviously now are canceled). I stopped as soon as I found out. I am concerned that will hurt the developing fetus in some way. My stomach is still behaving a little badly so I still am a bit concerned.

Eating Gluten Free was actually much easier for the four months than it has been for the last month or so. Maybe because it is Christmas and there are so many goodies and parties and eating away. I do know I have to be much, much more vigilant than before. Sometimes I will think .. "well this doesn't look like it has gluten in it"... aka spinach dip, BBQ sauce, etc but then I check the package to make sure, and there it is. No Christmas cookies was difficult but I did have some fudge and a few candies, and honestly didn't miss out on much - I'm not supposed to have sugary carbs anyway. But it is hard to be a "freak" especially when there is gourmet pizza at a lunch meeting, homemade stuffing, birthday cake. I'll survive.

I was initially afraid to tell anyone because I didn't want to jinx anything, but mostly everyone knows of our struggles. Please keep us in your prayers.